I feel like I should be someone else because this is not my life, I envy everyone who looks like they are enjoying life the way it was meant! Don't get me wrong I am fortunate to have the life I live, I know others are a lot worse off than me. I have great friends and family who love and support me...BUT...I spend 70% of my time at work doing a job that I don't really enjoy but I do it because it pays well enough not to be living from hand to mouth! I NEED MORE! A co-worker said to me as I was leaving for a break that I need to chill out as I had at least another 25 yrs to go! That got me thinking, 25 yrs of this shit? I think I might slit my wrists with a spoon! Either I start playing the lottery or I need to start seriously thinking about what I wanna do with my life, where do I wanna be in 25 yrs time? I know for sure I don't want to be in the same place getting yelled at by irate customers!
Realistically what can I do that is gonna pay me as much? I don't have a degree, and these days there is not much you can do without one, plus it has to be something I enjoy more to the point! Everything is so expensive, when your an adult its costly to decide that you want a new way of life.
I've been looking up courses on jewellery making, I love statement jewellery and I would love to create my own. When I was about 15 I used to make rings out of wooden beads and I remember being asked to make a selection to sell on a stall at a fair but because I was 15 I decided that it was too much work and declined (stupid me) anyway I would love to get into that again.
I just need to be doing something creative even if I am stuck in my job for another 25 yrs at least I would have done something that made me feel happy and fulfilled! Who knows I could be really successful and pack in my day job?! hahaha one step at a time eh!
In the meantime my boredom has turned me into a Delia Smith, baking chocolate cakes like they have been going out of fashion! Not a good hobby to take up when your trying to cut back on the eating! To be fair the last cake I made I didn't eat one slice!