Friday, 31 August 2012

Life And Death, Gone But Not Forgotten!

Hello, let me re-introduce myself! My name is Cherry Vidal... Ok Ok I know you know who I am, it's just been a while! *covers face*

So much has happened these past couple of months I don't even know where to begin. I have laughed and cried. Obviously London is experiencing Olympic fever and I have been fortunate enough to work right in the middle of it.  I guess originally I wasn't excited because all I could think about was the hard work it would involve, and boy did I work hard! But it was a once in a lifetime experience, I got to see a lot of athletes and get a couple of pics with them *big grin*

women's Judo silver medallist

The atmosphere was one I don't think I would ever be able to describe, people were proud to be British! I am glad I was a part of it.  It did keep me busy and I was extremely exhausted most of the time.

I got to spend some time with my bestie Rebequita, check out her blog it's great. It was nice to spend some time with her, had a couple of meals which were nice, she bought a lovely necklace for me which I have yet to wear! Love you girl!
I got two NEW tattoo's! One small bow on the back of my ankle and this beauty on my thigh..
I added cherry blossoms around it and she is stepping out of a lotus flower! It cost me a small fortune but it was a pre birthday present to myself, well worth it!

On to sadder news now. I lost someone close to my family this week.  I wasn't gonna include this part of my life on my blog but I want this blog to be a true reflection of myself.  This person was my God Mother, she was a big part of my life up until my teens.  She was my mums best friend. When I think back to every  major significant part of my childhood she was a part of it! The last 8 years we drifted apart due to reasons I won't go into, but with friends and family you find that happens, people fall out over minor disputes which at the time seem major, then this thing called time plays a big part and before you know it too much time has gone and 8yrs have passed!
I got a call on Monday saying that she was in hospital after having an operation to remove 5 tumour's on her brain.  She wasn't doing well after and was likely not gonna recover! Of course hearing this I rushed to the hospital to see her, I hadn't seen her for 8 yrs and when I see her she has tubes coming out of her, she is not the same person I remember! I know she can hear me so I talked to her told her how sorry I was for taking so long to reach out to her, I explained my reasons, reminisced  on the good times we had then I said goodbye and told her I would be back to see her on Wednesday! Unfortunately it was not to be, she passed away early hours on Wednesday morning! I was horrified, although I knew death was inevitable I thought she had longer, I thought I would get to see her at least one more time!
It hurts to talk about this as the pain is still fresh but at the same time it helps! I decided to go and see her body yesterday in the hospital chapel, I wanted to say goodbye, I needed the closure! Looking at her body, ice cold to the touch just made me think about our own mortality.  Its funny how death puts things into perspective.  I have never been very religious, I believe we have a creator, I believe in God. I just got to thinking what happens when we die? Looking at her body ( a shell of her former self) made me think there has to be more to life then just being! I'm still trying to realise what that is exactly, all I know is that life is too short, live life to the fullest, make sure you have positive people in your life and don't let insignificant arguments ruin your relationships, cherish your family!
I feel at peace after seeing her I feel she is in a better place where ever it may be, I know she is  at peace and is free! I still feel sad inside but I am getting there!

So bare with me people, I am not sure when my next post will be but it won't be so long next time! Thank you for sticking around, I have been catching up with all your blogs so expect comments! Oh and yes I decided a change on my blog went hand in hand with the change I am experiencing in myself! As always thanks for reading, all my love. XOXO